Hahah my friends wee brother set his birthday to today on facebook (it was actually in november) and people are leaving ~Happy Birthday messages on his wall.. Like his friends, people who were at his party… Idiots
I’m going to die. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe in a week. Maybe in 70 years, but I will die. Theres no way around it. I would be incredibly happy to live my life , as cliche as it is, like very day is my last. Why go to uni and study for 4 years to get a job that you probably don’t even like and stay in that job untill you die? What is that point in that? Or if you don’t go to uni, you just get a job in an office and work your way up untill you get to the top. Then what?
I’d rather go through life seeing everything and meeting people from all over the world and just getting odd jobs when I need money, then move on to the next place. School and teachers and parents have scared kids into thinking that they have to work hard at school, get a job, raise a family, provide for them and then….what? Die? is that it? I don’t really see the fun in spending my life making sure someone else has a future. It ruins the present.
Of course I will probably end up getting a job and staying in that till I die and get married and have kids and then I will want them to do well in school and go to uni and get a good job and have a family, because I will want the best for them and for them to be happy.
People who try and fight the system almost always end up alone. As good as it sounds, the nomad life is empty. It would be thrilling for a while, but sooner or later you will get bored and want to come back, and when you do, you will see that everyone else has moved on. It seems there are only 2 options. Break out and live in the moment, moving from place to place, forming relationships along the way that are short-lived. Or make it easy for yourself. Study. Work hard. Go to University. Get a good job. Fall in love. Raise a family.
I sometimes wish I had tried harder in school. I wish I didn’t fuck about the last 2 years of school and actually studied because, believe it or not, I’m actually quite smart, I just wasn’t interested in school. Now I can’t go to uni unless I go to college 1st and get highers (which I REALLY don’t want to do) It is pretty much impossible for me to get a job because I have shitty qualifications and no experience.
It seems like the nomad life is the only option availible for me. Too bad I’m far too much of a shitebag to ever do that. As much as I say it all the time, that I want to leave. To get away from everything I know. I would hate to cut myself off from my family and friends, it would kill me.
I don’t know what the purpose of this post is. I was just thinking about stuff and started typing. There are probably a million and 1 spelling and grammar mistakes, but I’m not gonna correct them. This is my first actual “blog” post. and It shall stay the way it is, in all it’s imprefect glory.